"Run to the kitchen, open the fridge, look for something to eat. Fast. Before you have time to get sad." 

(via sickly-thin)

"Treating eating disorders is difficult and may take years, but with professional help about half of anorexics or bulimics fully recover. Others are able to eat more normally, but maintain their preoccupation with weight." 

(via cutthecaloriesorelse)

"

Anorexia isn’t about being fat, it’s about having fat. Any fat. Any bulge or fold or winkle that isn’t skin, muscle or bone. Fat’s too dangerous. It’s too amorphous. It has no structure, it dimples and jiggles and droops. It is born of a disturbing, invisible alchemy, by which a cracker, a slice of cake, a pickle, a ham sandwich, all of it is rendered into the same tallow congealed beneath your skin. Fat gets away from you. You could almost imagine that it replicates itself, that once you lay down that first layer, your fat will take over from there. You could imagine yourself consumed by it, swallowed and suffocated by it, pulled down and drowned in it. Fat does not negotiate, it rampages.

Therefore the only way to be sure you are safe from it, is to allow none of it, not one ounce or curve of it. You must strip yourself to skin stretched like a canvas on a frame of bone, and even then you have merely fought to a stalemate, a permanent demilitarized zone along which you must stand vigilant at all times. You have to stake out your border…

…Anorexia is not about being pretty. It’s not about being desirable. It’s not even about being thin, really, because “thin” doesn’t begin to describe what you’re aiming for. Thin is too transient, too untrustworthy, too liable to slip away from you in a bite here, a nibble there. What you want is bone: absolute, impermeable, the Maginot line. Anorexia is not for the weak.

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"Eating disorders are diseases of silence. We are all silently screaming for something: attention, love, help, escape or forgiveness. Although we might be looking to fill different voids, we never ask for the things we need. We feel unworthy, that for some reason we don’t deserve them. So, we play the game of guess what I need from you. Your inability to guess just feeds our feelings of worthlessness." 

"People fall so in love with their pain, they can’t leave it behind. The same as the stories they tell. We trap ourselves." 

"Anorexia is a mass murderer. It is a serial killer, spreading itself like a virus, excruciatingly painfully destroying it’s victims until they are consumed. What is more, is that it can never be stopped. Never caught. It will continue to take the most beautiful souls." 

"I want to go to sleep and not wake up, but I don’t want to die. I want to eat like a normal person eats, but I need to see my bones or I will hate myself even more and I might cut my heart out or take every pill that was ever made." 

"Eating Disorders constantly hide their existence. They will evolve to cover themselves, to keep their victim in the dark, messed up place they are in. When a person is starting down the track at some stage their mind clicks over into the eating disorder thinking. It has been explained to me like a chemical process that changes in the brain – one moment the person is following a diet to lose weight, the next they lose control and the decision to keep moving down the weight scale is done for them. They are now controlled."